Suppressed emotions create truly vivid dreams

I’ve been contemplating the last year or so where my emotions seem to be threatening to spill out without the normal control I’ve fought so hard to retain over my lifetime. I find myself getting emotional over the smallest things. For the most part this only results in my eyes filling with tears and one […]

Emotional Paralysis

  It’s been quite a while since I wrote here. Once again, I failed at continuing something that is probably beneficial to me. What’s new, right?  I’ve thought about this post for weeks, trying to push it aside. It just kept coming back to me like a damn fly buzzing in your ear that you […]

Stop “Wallowing”

  Ok, here we go. It has happened. Probably my greatest concern since starting this blog. I had a feeling this was coming. The greatest obstacle in my mind has finally emerged. I found a comment yesterday from a family member to “stop wallowing”. And followed up with “I love you”. If you knew me, […]

Learning to deceive

  Perhaps the thing I resent and hate the most from my childhood years was constantly being put in the position of deceiving as a means of protecting others from pain. I was a very bright child, in fact until fourth grade, the model child. Courteous, helpful, great grades, and teachers pet. Things at home started […]