I’ve been contemplating the last year or so where my emotions seem to be threatening to spill out without the normal control I’ve fought so hard to retain over my lifetime. I find myself getting emotional over the smallest things. For the most part this only results in my eyes filling with tears and one […]
It’s been quite a while since I wrote here. Once again, I failed at continuing something that is probably beneficial to me. What’s new, right? I’ve thought about this post for weeks, trying to push it aside. It just kept coming back to me like a damn fly buzzing in your ear that you […]
Ok, here we go. It has happened. Probably my greatest concern since starting this blog. I had a feeling this was coming. The greatest obstacle in my mind has finally emerged. I found a comment yesterday from a family member to “stop wallowing”. And followed up with “I love you”. If you knew me, […]
I recently heard this song while driving and it hit me like a ton of bricks. Music tends to do that to me. It reaches places that I prefer to lock away. From the first words I was hooked. As it began, it pained me. Then it encouraged me. And finally it filled me […]
Forgive our Fathers My dad died on March 28, 2005. Followed shortly thereafter by his Father in September and his Mother In November. It was a difficult year. I guess, for me, it was a transformative year. It was like the band-aid that I had worn for most of my life was torn off. […]
Breaking down walls 