I recently heard this song while driving and it hit me like a ton of bricks. Music tends to do that to me. It reaches places that I prefer to lock away. From the first words I was hooked. As it began, it pained me. Then it encouraged me. And finally it filled me […]
I’m not the most normal guy you’ll meet. Just ask my wife. My son who has Autism gladly blames me for giving it to him. It is a running joke. They claim I am “inappropriate” at times because I occasionally don’t have a filter when it comes to polite conversation. I have no idea what […]
Forgive our Fathers My dad died on March 28, 2005. Followed shortly thereafter by his Father in September and his Mother In November. It was a difficult year. I guess, for me, it was a transformative year. It was like the band-aid that I had worn for most of my life was torn off. […]
Perhaps the thing I resent and hate the most from my childhood years was constantly being put in the position of deceiving as a means of protecting others from pain. I was a very bright child, in fact until fourth grade, the model child. Courteous, helpful, great grades, and teachers pet. Things at home started […]
It is April 13, 2016. Two months ago I started this blog with the intent of putting my memories down to try to free myself from their grips. As usual…… this ambitious spur of the moment decision was set aside and forgotten. Well, I’ll try again. Somehow, Someway I’ll try to do the hardest thing […]
I am weeks away from my 48th birthday. I am only partially living. I have guarded my heart to protect myself, and others, for some reason I can’t fully articulate. I am hoping that by starting to put my thoughts and feelings into words I can start to chip away at the defenses that have […]
Breaking down walls 